I took a deep breath while hearing her voice
Listening to my heart beating as my breathing accelerated
She had set limits
She had set goals
She had taken over all my hope
My skin was cold
I could feel the soft breeze
She had made me brittle, easily broken and sensitive
I could not succeed
I could not embark on my life journey
There was a wall where I had once seen a bridge.
“Ma’am!” I scream. “Ma’am! Why am I hurting in a world full of joy?”
But her answer was cold and obscure like the turbulent waters .”Maybe you see joy where true pain is being hidden.”
And that was it.
I feared the eye of the neighbor for they may betray my soul
I feared the help I needed as it may deepen the wound
I feared the change to come as it may take away my love
And I feared myself as I may not be enough
“Let her sink!” I heard a deep and raspy voice say.
But “No!” I could not, Fear was the only one I listened to.
She was my one
She had been there when I doubted when I cried, and when I hurt
Never did I think, she was just a knife on my wound
Preventing a hemorrhage while making it worse
And maybe, after all, it was time to let her sink
Let her drown in her ocean of lies
Be poisoned by her pessimism
Let her feel agony alone
And I did
And I took a deep breath
And I looked at the blue sky
And I listened to the calming waves, the sound of the wind playing with the palm trees
And I let the sun kiss me
And I embarked again, setting my eye on new shores
All because I let fear sink.