I still smell the blood -
From the wounds and the punctures
of my need for your love
a desire that destroyed me.
Feasted on every last bit of me,
left my carcass for the vultures.
i wish wanting you didnt feel like torture.
Locked in this dungeon trying to choose between my life and your love.
Maybe I thought your heart was stronger than this
But i can only wish you could
handle a love so strong
Because your heart was only made
to pump blood.
And your soul was just made to exist and not intertwine and combine and become one with mine.
I wish i could travel into your heart and mind
To birth the idea of you and I
i wish i can redefine my name in your head
Put all the distractions to bed.
I wish I could shoot you dead
And bring you back to life
So that you would
have no choice but to abide
i wish I can call you mine.
i wish I could part your seas and see beneath the murky waters of your soul
I wish you were mine to hold
i wish i could be everything youd ever need.
The water, food and the air youd breathe.
I wish i could tell you the
following face to face.
I wish our hearts were in the same place
Because this desire makes me feel insane
And theres always
too much space between us.
i wish shooting cupids arrow at you didnt feel like poaching
i wish fighting these feelings didnt feel like
Taking a whipping
i wish that through my prose and rhyme youd want to be mine
and after all this time, youd want me to yourself and no one else.
I wish i was your redemption
I wish you would understand
the concept of devotion
I wish there was a
such thing as a love potion
Because we would both overdose
And you would finally hold me close
And never, ever let go.
Maybe then you would find satisfaction
living in this crypt I call a heart
Because mine is big enough for both of us.
We would never spend a second apart.
the end could be the start.
But that would be a fairytale.
And in this lifetime, its not mine.
So i let go
Or Atleast i tried.
Because ive died atleast five times in one night
I take flight in my dreams
And still you haunt me there,
Despite my cries
Why cant you untie the ties
Of your lies in your life
Then let the lies slip down the sides of your eyes.
Like the ones youve caused me,
overflowing like high tide.
Surrender the disguise
that implies youre my mine
Because i know
what you desire is my demise
It became clear the night
you ripped out my heart and left
But its time to swallow your pride.
Let go of the lies that burn your ties
To those whose lives
Youve hurt including mine
Youve made me tired
Countless nights i've cried
Fuck your pride
Youre a monster.
One day youll realize what lies
Behind your eyes
In the darkness of your mind.