They say laugh to hide the pain,

But what do you gain,

A shattered heart still beats,

Haunting memories still resonate in your head,

 

They say laugh to hide the pain,

But deep down you’ll forever remember,

The ones lost without a cause,

After your laugh is hushed,

A whisper of the comforting words she spoke,

Swirls through your memory,

The scent of her perfume arouses your keen nasal,

And you’re forever lost in a daze,

 

They say laugh to hide your pain,

But when you lie in bed,

Looking at the ceiling,

Asking God why,

Where’s the laughter there,

It’s replaced with a prayer for the ones lost without a cause,

Each day you pause,

Remembering the sweetness only she could render,

A soul that was so close and tender,

 

You muster through life day by day,

Asking God to show you the way,

To complete happiness,

For now you earnestly search for a laugh,

Sentence by sentence,

Humor to hide the thoughts of tumors,

Humor to hide the pain,

Humor to hide the anger,

Humor to hide the thoughts of death,

 

I sit and listen to your laugh,

I smile in awe,

You still manage to stay strong for me,

Your family,

Friends,

Yourself,

Her memory,

 

Somehow you rummage to find glee,

In a life full of strife,

They say laugh to hide the pain,

The warmth of happiness embezzles you,

From your gut,

Filling your face with pleasantness,

An uncontrollable urge,

A laugh,

Even if only for a moment