"Just One"
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Each day, i wonder
what my life would be like
if i hadn't made the first cut
if my emotions hadn't overpowered me
if i wasn't so desperate to let it out
It started with one and then another
until i started to not feel the pain
i couldn't feel any physical pain
everything was mental
i started only feeling numbness
Who knew that just a cut
could lead to predicaments
that seemed to bw blown
way out of porportion
just one simple cut
Soon i didn't realize what
i was doing to myself
scar after scar after scar
my arm filled
and i tried to hide them
I wear these bands
and my jackets because
i am insecure about myself
my action not only hurt me
but others around me as well
My emotions have completley taken over
sometimes i cant control them
my mind goes blank and
my emotions sweep over my heart
i feel the only resort is my arm
cut after cut
my arms get more scarred
i try my hardest to stop
but i have to much stress
i never know what to do
but i still wonder
could i have been happy
would my life get better
will my family ever NOT worry about me
will i ever be happy again....