Is this what jealousy feels like?
I feel sick to my stomach and my head hurts
The tears threaten to force their way past the walls that I’ve built
And I feel guilty for feeling this way.
Jealousy is ugly and it doesn’t suit me
Yet as I hear you talk about how much she knows you
As I hear you talk about having to steal her away to spend time
As I hear you say that you’ve had so little time with her…
And you say a number…so much more than the time we’ve spent together.
I used to say that I didn’t need to be jealous because
If I had to be jealous then you wouldn’t be my man
But I’ve been questioning that lately, questioning if you’re mine
It drives me insane and I can’t speak
I can’t argue one way or the other, because I want you to be happy
But how can I let you be happy when I hurt so much?
Is it wrong to want my own happiness?
Am I taking away yours when I feel like you want to be with her instead?
This must be what jealousy feels like
I don’t like it.