Ivory doll


Beneath the ivory doll...


Are dark circles around my eyes, I sleep 3 to 4 hours a night


I worry over everything

Yet I don't say anything

I don't want to be selfish.


You see a girl with long blonde hair

Yet I see greying temples that pass as blonde


You hear a small voice and a smile that causes everyone to smile in response

I hear a classic glass coca cola bottle cracking,

A little me inside,

with vocal cords,

wanting to break open and shatter the sound barrier!


And I see a frown most of the time, I just don't like complaining about my problems when others have it so much worse. 


I don't have even colored skin and pink rosy cheeks.

I blush at everything, but my whole face goes cherry red.

You see I'm small and petite and fragile, but I can swim laps in pools for hours.

I may not have curves, but I got abs anyone would die for.


I want to dance spontaneously when I get into the music

But I don't dare move a muscle.


You see a ivory glass doll, but you don't see the determination, muscle, or personality beneath.

But that's not your fault, I keep to myself, because that's what ivory dolls do.





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