its been over 9 months since he left us there

barely 8 months since i left you there

just 7 seconds since i tried to join you there

youd be barely 5 weeks old and your smile would light up my world there

you were mind and i remember 4 in the morning waking up in tears because the pain was mind numbing and i wanted you there

3 pills in the morning

2 shots at night

1 little baby who would never see the light