Would it be easier to give this all up?
Does any of this matter?
Do the sleepless nights, the throbbing brain, the helpless shoving of loved ones;
Away, away from me because I do not have time,
Time
Time for them
Time for you
Hell, I don't even have time for me.
These seconds zip by and i keep trudging forward
Finding some worthless excuse to keep going,
To complete another assignment
To decide what which class to let slip so another may prosper,
But that tank of excuses is ever so empty.
I grow weary.
Last night I shaved for the first time in three weeks,
No time
I try to keep my hopes up
Waiting for that hopeful break,
But it does not come.
When one day of brain wrenching work ends,
Another has already begun, laughing hysterically at my efforts.
Effort
Something we must all choose to give,
Make the decision to do
Decision
Choice
It is what our whole world revolves around,
It is a choice that decides our fates,
It is because of choices that I am here
Writing.
Writing to reach an invisible ear,
An ear I will never truly get feedback from.
My spirits are low
My soul dismayed
I've lost hope.
Is it worth it?
Is sacrificing my health worth a degree that may not matter?
A bunch of classes that may get me into a college,
Is college worth THIS?
I suppose I will never know,
For failure is not an option.
Onward I go
Sleepless, weary, angry,
Spoke or later all will leave me.
Will it be worth it?