Innocent
I look up into a set of deep sea blue eyes, words are escaping his mouth. He's speaking but I can't make out what he's telling me. The only words I actually paid attention to, still roll around in my head. His voice unusually deeper and eyes that scream guilt. Looking to the floor then to my siblings, they look back and forth between the two adults infront of them. So oblivious and innocent. I feel hands on my shoulders, looking up to see the same eyes I once admired. He tells me I have to be responsible while he's gone, that he'll only be gone for a bit. Telling me he loves me he steps back and looks at us all. I have no words to say, no emotions to feel, I just do what I do best, stare. Stare at the sky, where its infinite, where there is no pain but just beauty. Hearing the car start up, I see him. Window down, his favorite song "Bitter sweet symphony" blaring out of his speakers and his arm sticking out, letting it rest on the window creves. The last thing I saw before he turned the corner, was his red shirt and the back of his forest green land rover. Turning around, I walk back to the car and get it. Before we reach the highway leading up to our one hour drive home, the song "apologize" by One Republic comes on the radio. Listening to the lyrics, the lyrics that speak my mind. The words that I can't explain. The words I feel. Shame that I put trust in you, love that I gave you, and a piece of my heart I gave to you, that I will never get back.