Late nights
Early mornings
that's when I feel it most.
I can deal with the time in between,
usually I'm throwing up or writing poetry or rocking myself back and forth.
I try to keep busy
so ya know
I won't need to think about it too much.
Because it's clear you aren't and I can take a hint baby.
I watch "The Game" constantly because I realized I am or I relate to Melanie Barnett.
But it's difficult to watch because I know how it ends; girl runs back to guy, guy and girl work out their issues and they live happily ever after.
Unfortunately for me I don't know if there's a happily ever after in my book
or at least the chapter that includes you.
You never check on me...that stings
like a sting Ray I'm drowning. Ray I'm drowning.
And as I sink deeper into the abyss
I see
I see you at the surface
Laughing with your friends
Walking past without as much as a glance in the water
Moving on so smoothly, effortlessly, involuntarily.
I'm drowning in my love
regrets
tears
pain
sadness
care...or your lack thereof.
But as long as you're happy, that's all that matters right.