The Inevitable

Fri, 04/17/2020 - 01:29 -- Aegis

So, then, how do we…

 

How do we move on? 

 

Is there some point in time I was supposed to label this a mistake?

 

This whole thing, this whole history?

 

Was it doomed before it began?

 

I guess it was.

 

So, what? We just, we let it - go?

 

Is that what I am supposed to do?

 

Oh, oh boy.

 

I should’ve known it was too good to last. 

 

Eventually you would see me. 

 

Eventually your pure eyes would see my filth

 

Eventually I would wake up-

 

Car gone, fines everywhere,

 

House destroyed, friends in flames,

 

And my heart alone. 

 

Eventually you’d learn.

 

And I can’t blame you. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to…

 

You just said to trust you, you said to believe

 

I tried so hard for so long and

 

And

 

But

 

And

 

And when it

 

When you were gone.  .  .   .   .

 

It hurt.

 

 

 

It’s been a while-

 

A long while,

 

It’s been so long since we spoke.

 

And I can already feel your unease. .

 

Well,

 

Maybe it’s just mine. Heh.

 

I know, I know I’m different,

 

I mean,

 

Look at me, I’m a little worse for wear.

 

I have these, 

 

this

 

these new lives. This whole world!

 

Me.

 

Of course, it’s unexplored-

 

And I’ve just been procrastinating.

 

And yeah my belt is a little tighter…

 

But hey! It’s so, 

 

so,

 

so terrifying, to see you again.

 

You know the last time I saw you, you were walking to a guys’ place?

 

I knew who it was.

 

not that it matters, I’m just the crazy one.

 

Yoo-hoo.

 

but, it mattered to me.

 

And…

 

It hit me then, what I’ve been trying to drown out ever since.

 

I want it to be you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sorry.

 

 

 

 

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