I'm Tired

I’m tired of pretending to be normal

I’m tired of pretending to be happy

I’m tired of pretending to care about how you feel about my disease

I’m tired of pretending that there is nothing wrong with me

I’m tired of pretending that it matters to you

I’m tired of pretending that you’re okay with my disease

I’m tired of pretending

 

I’m tired of smiling through the tears

I’m tired of smiling when I feel like crying

I’m tired of smiling when you treat me as a leper

I’m tired of smiling

 

I’m tired of lying about my disease

I’m tired of lying that every is okay

I’m tired of lying about how I feel

I’m tired of lying to belong

I’m tired of lying to those I care about

I’m tired of lying

 

I’m tired of looking for your love

I’m tired of looking for your acceptance

I’m tired of looking for a cure

I’m tired of looking

 

I’m tired of trying to be normal

I’m tired of trying to not hurt

I’m tired of trying to not care of what others think

I’m tired of trying to be accepted as I am

I’m tired of trying

 

I’m tired of hiding in the shadows

I’m tired of hiding how I feel

I’m tired of hiding how much I hurt

I’m tired of hiding how much those that I care about hurt me

I’m tired of hiding my disease

I’m tired of hiding my medications

I’m tired of hiding

 

I’m tired of learning about my disease

I’m tired of learning how to live with my disease

I’m tired of learning how to die

I’m tired of learning

 

 

I’m tired of being one of ‘those people’

I’m tired of being pityed

I’m tired of being happy

I’m tired of being sad

I’m tired of being me

I’m tired of being

 

I’m tired of explaining my disease

I’m tired of explaining that I am no danger to you

I’m tired of explaining how I feel

I’m tired of explaining

 

I’m tired of avoiding people that don’t approve

I’m tired of avoiding things that ‘may’ endanger others

I’m tired of avoiding explaining to please

I’m tired of avoiding

 

I’m tired of crying because I hurt

I’m tired of crying because I’m dying

I’m tired of crying because I’m still alive

I’m tired of crying because I’m tired

I’m tired of crying for others that haven’t survived

I’m tired of crying because I can’t stop fighting to survive

 

I’m tired of living a lie

I’m tired of living to die

I’m tired of living

 

I’m tired of dying everyday

I’m tired of dying

 

I’m tired

This poem is about: 
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