Fitting in, never felt like I did anywhere, tried to find my way, my space, my place that I could sit at, too good at acting, adapting, accepting fake shit, that wasn’t me, was too fine with going with the flow, being the status quo and changing my personality just to go along with the crowd, I’ll tell you right now trying to fit in was the worst decision I ever did, being sensitive, that’s what I hid, that’s what made me feel unloved, feel unaccepted, feel like I didn’t belong because no one was as sensitive as me, that’s what made me feel weak and I didn’t wanna show it because of that, that’s what made me go into a shell, I gotta tell myself sorry now cause I was ashamed of myself, I’m sorry Areil, I’m so sorry, there’s nothing wrong with being sensitive, I see that clear currently right now, when you don’t accept, you hide, and fake, and create someone untrue, I’m sorry again, you didn’t deserve being treated so ugly, I grew hard, I grew tough, I grew unkind, I’m sorry I didn’t embrace your uniqueness inside, I shouldn’t of hid your feelings, your open, your vulnerable, your sensitive and you can’t help it, you care, you feel deeply, I shouldn’t of been afraid of you and your strengths, its weird to most, but its you, I love you, please forgive me.