I'm sorry
The first time that I saw you
You casted your spell
You noticed me out of the few
I thought we'd be forever but only time will tell
A month went by and everything was great
But then you came home drinking
I would send you to bed after you ate
That got me thinking
Not for very long
Because you told me, I love you
I thought that side of you was gone
But I loved you too
In the middle of dinner you grabbed the bottle
I was scared and confused
You downed it in no time at all
You tried to make me amused
We got home and I tried so hard
You said you were okay
So I let down my guard
The next morning it was a bouquet
The carnations were deep
They made a perfect match
A mix of purple and green
I'm still so attached
You hugged me sorry and I felt the bruise
And three more followed after
It was never just one — they always came in twos
I kept up the laughter
Day after wretched day
An I love you or I'm sorry
I don't know how much more I can take
You start towerin’ over
It's cracked the doctor said
Soon I might have to bid
It's my life over what you say
Next, it won't be my rib
It might be my daughter’s
I don't want her to see me like this
Time to learn your new rules
Time for you to take your trip
You’d rather take a dip
You say you’re sorry after every time
But you don’t see it do you?
The wave of anxieties, antidepressants
It’s taking over
I can’t tell anymore
Am I living or just existing?