I'm Losing My Mind

I don't know how I got to be like this
I wonder how I was so unlucky
I just remember not wanting to let go
Not wanting to forget her
I remember she was all I thought about
She was everywhere
She was everything
Every single image I saw she was there
Mocking me
Every memory she was there
Reminding me
Every breath she was there
Stealing it from me

I don't know how I got this way
I remember thinking
"I'm getting lost
I am losing my mind
Over a girl
That doesn't even waste
Any of her time
To even think of me
To even speak to me
To even notice me"

I don't know how I got this way
I'm losing my mind
Trying to understand why this is happening
To me
Why everything hurts
Why I want to be living my life at its fullest
But at the same time
I just want to end it
End everything I had done
End everything I wanted to do
I wonder how dying became all I thought about
How dying became my only thought of release

After my heart got shattered
I was never the same
If they weren't her
I would hate when they would touch me
I would hate when they would speak to me
I would hate when they would acknowledge that I even existed
I guess I only wanted her
To hold me
To speak to me
To acknowledge me
I guess I was being someone different
Someone who was not me
I guess I only thought of her
I guess
I guess I was losing my mind
Over a girl
Who wouldn't ever waste her time
To even think of me
To even speak to me
To even notice me
To even notice
That my mind was going hazy
My thoughts were getting crazy
Thinking about her
Thinking
"Wow
I'm losing my mind
Over all this time
There has only been one thing in my thoughts
And my heart aches
Because I realize
She's never even wasted her time to even speak to me
To even look at me
To even think of me
When
I
Have lost my mind
With these recurring thoughts
About her
About how a person so gentle and kind could hurt and break you
How a person can make themselves everything you longed for
How a person would not care about you even if they know you are devoted to them
How a person can make to believe that they are in love with you"

I don't know how I got this way
I wonder how I got so unlucky
I'm
I'm losing my mind
Over a girl
Who doesn't waste any of her time
To even speak to me
To even notice me
To even think
That
I'm losing my mind
With these
Persistent Thoughts
About her

This poem is about: 
Me
My community
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Comments

BillyPilgrim

I really like this. It's honest. I can see how the person keeps circling back, how their train of thought is in a repeating loop. I can feel their strife.

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