I'm Fine.
except
that I need you,
accept that I need you
and I’ll bleed to see you smile,
I breath to push you through the trial
because the full version of this virgin mary is a scary vision of my future failure.
I’ll nail her to the wall like a marquez metaphor before I bore my heart into more useless characters,
each playing a role enacting the paragraph you’ll never hear.
Contained behind two words is a mass of feeling unappealing to you so I’ll leave it alone,

I’m Fine.
Fine believing that we’ll be together,
Beat together, feet together as we stand for a photo
You know I will do you no harm.Or at least that’s what I say.
I’ll be your knight in shining armor.
But I am no knight.
I’m just a boy,
A boy who raised on grand gestures
So I conjecture that to get her is what my movie is all about.
But I’m not Ferris Bueler
I will not twist and shout
I won’t sing I love you baby like Ten Things I Hate About
I doubt she’ll notice. I’ll slip away as I struggle with the quotas of adequecy and apathy and empathy and believe me I’m trying, but I’m just a boy.
The main character of a movie that doesn’t exist after he exits the stage.

Fine.
The only problem in my movie life is the development.
I’m bent out of shape like a vhs tape worst for wear. I bear being by your side without being with you. I miss you.
This plot will never arc my heart will still be marked long after you’re gone.
You’ve already left.
I’m stuck repeating this record again and again,
pull the plug pause the tape my mind can’t take the stress
so at best?

I’m Fine.