Sometimes I believe that I have everything I could ever want, other times it feels like I am falling into a dark place and I begin to see them haunt. I call out for help but nobody's around, its like I’m all alone and I finally hit the ground. 
But I have to be okay, I have to smile, my friends are there, all the while, I don’t want to break them, I don't want them to run away. If anyone asks I just say, hey I'm okay I’ve survived another day. 
If anyone questions my method of madness I just hide it away behind all the sadness. Like a rainy day that can’t get much gloomier, my heart seems much colder and roomier. Like a cold empty room that nobody's in, Those bad thoughts crawl in my skin.
What have you done? my brain asks me, you’ll never be as much as they want you to be. So I look up to the sky and keep asking why, but no answer I just stand there and cry.