stupidley hanging my head in shame 

finding out i lost a contest i never entered 

crying into my pillow at night 

screaming at those who love me 

zoning out in class

falling in love with selfish hounds 

giving my body to those who scare easily 

stabbing myself with my own words 

brinstorming ideas that will never come to fruition 

listening to old music 

asking for help 

that's my inspiration, baby