I Want to Die

Personal anecdotes, on and on

Me, me. Oh that’s happened to me

Who cares? So what?

You say you’re my friend but maybe you’re not

Me, I, mine, my

And this is why I want to Die

 

Are you ok? Are you good?

Wouldn’t you like to know.

Turn your back when I say I’m fine

You care to make yourself feel better

We don’t talk normal and to me you lie

And this is why I want to Die

 

Secrets shared and memories made

Whispers, moments, weirdness

Why did you leave me, why didn’t you stay

Why, Why, Why, Why, Why?

You left soon as possible and so I cry

This is why I want to Die

 

Talk to someone

Take medication

Boom! Suddenly I’m fixed.

Haha, tricked you, I’m still the same

Think of the beyond

Every night, every day

Waiting hours for your reply

And this is why I want to Die

 

What was that saying about messy things,

Out of sight and out of mind?

Oh, ok, push me aside

Pretend you forgot or just didn’t know

But I’ll tell you again, a million times

And this is why I want to Die

 

Are you ashamed of me

and everything that we’ve been through?

Wow, that’s some way for a friendship to end

Do you not know what you mean to me,

Do I have to spell it out?

D-I-E, please, please, please

Words are carelessly thrown all the time

And this is why I want to Die

 

How do we know we’re even alive

Which is why I want to Die

This poem is about: 
Me
My community

Comments

Springgi

Argued with someone  or misunderstanding?

halomusic

misunderstandings with lots of people.

Noriii B

please dont die i feel ur pain tho its not fair the way the world works people constantly saying they have depression or asking if ur okay but they dont know nothing about how bad it hurts my parents say what do i have to be depressed about but depresssion isnt something you can explaiin its somethinng painful and suffocating im not evenn going to ask if ur okay because its obvious ur not but i love ur poems i read every single one of them ur a huge inspiration

halomusic

omg thank you xx
i am actually getting a lot better, last year was really bad for me but now i just write about it to spread awareness because mental health is such a big part of society and is literally a silent killer so i'm doing it so that if i make a difference to even one persons life, make one person feel like life is worth living, i will.

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