I used to Love
Could everyone tell but me ?
The feelings I felt you never felt the same for me .
And what a shame ,
All we could have been .
Everything you said I believed in
so whole heartedly.
How could I not see past the façade
Of all the lies , the games && trickery.
They say that love is blind,
But I say love is blinding .
I couldn’t see what was right in front of me ,
With love in the way blocking me.
My heart I gave , no strings attached
That heart you took and tore apart.
Now I’m left alone to find and put back all the pieces,
Of a heart which was never quite whole to begin with.
So where do I go from here ?
I have yet to mend this heart of mine ,
Thinking of you still send shivers up my spine ,
I know you’ve moved on ,
And I wish I could to,
But believe me when I say it’s not that easy ;
Not that easy, as it was loving you .
And even if you did me wrong,
My love for you remains so strong .
I refuse to believe you never loved me .
I refuse to believe you and I will never be ,
More than just a fantasy ;
That I still wish could have been a reality .
I know I must let you go,
And that this is something I needed to go through in order to grow .
But tell me what do I do from here?
How do I get out of this web which has entangled me .
Can someone help me please ,
I can’t see with love-still in the way blocking me .
Every time I try to move forward ,
something pulls me into the reverse direction .
I know I’m to blame for this constant obstruction.
I hung around you so long that lies now become a daily habit .
I keep lying to myself to stop the crying ,
Cuz I figure if I lie it will somehow numb the pain .
And what’s now a hole in my chest can start beating again.
I’ve come to realize that these lies
Do nothing but create more lonely cries .
Yet I do nothing in my power to try to stop it .
They say that all is fair in love and war
But because of you I closed that door
And I’m scared to look out anymore.
Because , After you my dear ,
Love just don’t live here no more.