I see that peace

I'm being so selfish, I'm not the only one with problems not the only one going thru it, not the only one whose depressed, &' they tell me not to drink but somehow I still just want to do it, some people I knew died last year, and even though it's been a while seriously how could I not care?, my Bestfriend moved away, of course we're not kids anymore so I can drive up when I want to but you know it's not the same, all this is showing me that I just want to relax, everything is already mess up I don't want to stress myself out, I'm only 130 pounds I need to stop going crazy when people tell me I need to work out, okay everyone needs to excercise I get that but I take it to the head, when you say that I see that and I think about all my flaws and once you say that I see that and you now you can't take it back, I just want to be comfortable in my skin, I just want to never question if I'm pretty enough or if they think I fit in, I want some peace but with that comes consequence, if I'm too at peace then I'm not on gaurd and am willing to risk it? Not a chance, I have people who depend on me and I've got to be strong, so I'll give up peace for them, if I can't be humble and that protects my people I will be selfless. I guess the first words were wrong. WK is never selfish☮

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