My mom tells me to stop

Stop caring about him

Stop letting him know that he hurt me

That I’m breaking inside because of him

Because that is what is fueling him

That I don’t need him

But I can’t

I will always love him

I will always care

I will always let what he did hurt me

And no matter how many people tell me I don’t need him

I will always want him

No matter how much I fucking hate him