I look at you. I see a dream.
A prayer, Spoken through dark dreams
we're so young to know what love is now
But others don't see our "why" and "how"
I look at you. I see a nightmare.
Skin stretched over bones in a nightgown
I make you your lunch but you cannot eat
You can barely even drink
without feeling pain in your abdomen
over the tumor, bruised skin stretches thin
on the lips that we share, you no longer grin
As you taught me to again and again
With no one else home until night falls
I watch you alone and my heart calls
to God for someone to alleviate worry and pain
My answer comes as quickly as rain.
I look at you. I see "Just a guy"
But you're the first to ask me how I am in life
I wonder why, I wonder why
You cared to ask me; so quiet and shy
I look at you and I smile
pull down my sleeves and say "I'm fine."
I look at you. I see my friend.
You speak to me again and again
in this class where people shout and heads spin
you ask me how she's been..
I look at you. I see a shell.
Of a woman who has been through hell.
Your body is so small and frail
you swim in your dreams
sometimes you yell
into the night, but I don't think you know
that we're asleep, But it's okay.
I try to calm you anyways
Once the chemo took your mind
I tried to make my life look alright
to the friends I knew that pass me in hallways
but I'm suffering inside..
I look at you. I see hope.
you wrap your hand around my wrist
and seal my lips with a tender kiss
for the first time in a year
I smile and it feels so real.
I look at you. I see you're shock.
That night he came to visit me.
on our fronch porch at 8:03
I though I should be embarrassed
but then I couldn't stare less
As he stood and took your hand
with a polite "I'm sorry ma'm"
It's one of your good days and you smile back
I wish we could all stay like that.
I look at you. I see my love.
God's gift to me when life was so rough
you make me feel happy when no one else could.
when I come home i tell her that you're so good.
she barely murmurs, I barely heard her
I look at you. I see your pieces.
My brother and sister
their newborn babes
and God's beautiful grace
linger around the hospice bed
I grab your hand and ask if I can have a moment alone
they leave then tears start to flow
I tell you the words he told me to say
you speak as if it'll take your breath away
"tell him that I love him too.."
and then as I put my bracelet on your wrist
soft words emerge from your lips
"you two take care of eachother.."
You remembered him.
I let the pain escape finally
you blow a kiss and say
"be strong, baby"
I look at you. I see relief.
you don't mind taking all of my grief
The only one who knows how to hold me
and not say anything at all
No person can understand a pain this large
You hug me in the pouring rain
After I play her song by the ground she was layed in
my guitar brought the rain in on everyone's faces
but you hold me tight
you become my rock
In a world that's changing
our love locks.
I look at you. I see my soulmate.
After all this time, It has to be fate
To have us pulled together
and never pulled apart
to link together our young hearts
I wear your ring on my hand
And I know she stands
In Heaven watching over us
The only one in my family who approves of us
and That's okay
All I can say, Is she'll be there on our wedding day
She helped me find my one true love
Even when her body had enough
I can feel her smile shining down on us
and for you and I, That's just enough.
I look at you. It's just enough.