I knew you
I remember you
when you fell and scraped your knee
when you sat in the sand and cried
and I just sat beside you quietly
because you had the saddest face
that I'de ever seen.
I remember you
back when your hair was long and black
and mine was short
Sliced strait above the gum you stuck in it
Now your hair's short and blue as the sea
and your parents hate it
but it's still just as beautiful to me
I remember you
when you said we'd be cute together
and I thought so too
but that didn't stop me from saying "ew"
because I was afraid you'd say it first
I remember you
Whispering ghost stories
under the willow tree
And talking about the other kids
the ones we only wished we could be
I remember you
When you seduced some older kids
into being our new friends
when you took my little hand and said
"don't ruin it"
I remember you
When you asked if I was lonely
when you told me to hide who I was
because the the other kids
would only disown me
But you wouldn't
I remember you
You were the tallest tree
you would grow and progress
so far beyond me
I was a raging fire.
You kept me alive,
but it wasn't without consequence.
I kept you warm for a while
but inevitably I burned your roots with my fire
and we both knew
Your face was sad again
our conversation dwindled and drifted away
I knew you
Better than I knew myself
but I don't anymore
I knew you,
but the new girl
claimed to be your best friend
and she was the one
who told me about your parents divorce
and your first kiss
I knew
that once you would have told me first
and that no stranger would ever have dared
to claim to me
that she was your best friend.
I knew you
but now I can't even look at you.
Its been years
but honestly, sometimes I still miss hugging you
I miss crying in your hair
I miss eating fish sticks
and the way you'd always swear at me
and I miss sleeping on your floor
and god knows some things have happened
that I wish you could see.
More than anything
I miss you.