I looked up to you

You were my world 

I wanted to make you happy

When I found out your weren't

I didn't want to be happy

I wanted to be sad

I tried to feel bad

I tried to make you feel glad

Then you told me why you weren't happy

Why you made my mother sad

And then I really did feel bad

I didn't have to pretend 

Because it hurt

To know that your struggles were the cause 

of my childhood happy family

But I learned 

You didn't mean it

And you're still sad

I still look up to you

You're still my world

Even if you can't have what would make you happy