I hear...
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The strength is leaving my body;
I hear the beating of my heart.
Nothing
Is the same, yet
Nothing
Has changed.
My pulse thumps differently
Than the expansions in my lungs.
Ragged breaths.
Deep draws
Of this thing called
Air.
I hear the beating of my heart.
My muscles shout in agony,
My mind screams with confusion.
The bruises
Are yours.
My knees collapse.
It’s not okay.
I shout without words
That it never was.
My eyes reveal
That they are
Exhausted.
My hands shakily prove
That they are
Nervous.
The opposition shouts against my heart.
Animalistic,
Primitive,
Is my sense of self.
Does time heal all
Wounds?
Is it okay
Not to be okay?
Is it acceptable
To be weak inside?
I ought not to show the pain I feel.
I must not reveal
That I am
Broken.
I cannot show
That my heart is torn,
And I cannot
Affirm to others
That you are gone from my world.
And yet,
It’s time I betray
All instincts.
My eyes lift.
In them,
Is hope.
In them,
Is power.
I must survive.
I must
Reach,
Push,
Exist,
Live,
Be.
I must heal.
I am me.
Regardless of you.
You’ve given me
Strength.
Now strength is what I will give
To you.