I had a friend named Fear
He was present in any social situation I faced
He quickened the beat of my heart, saying it was out of love and grace
He stood by my side, reassuring me he would never leave
But in the end, he stopped me from everything I wanted to achieve.
I had a friend named Nervous
She is responsible for the perspiration that formed on my palms
The butterflies in my stomach that felt like atomic bombs
The nails on my fingers that can not be chewed any shorter
And she’s the reason why I’d never consider being a reporter.
I had a friend named Panic
He allowed me to feel trapped in rooms with unlocked doors
Making me feel as if I was a prisoner of a war
I did not know when he would arrive
And in many appearances he made me feel like I’d never survive.
My anxiety is what navigated me to these friends
These friends who were supposed to guide me actually led me to dead ends
I turned to them for hope, reassurance and defense
But in the end all they gave me was a life that was too intense.
I now have a friend named Bravery
She diminishes any fear that I face
She taught me that fear in my life has no room and no place
Everyday she is right by my side
Helping me conquer the things that make me feel terrified.
I now have a friend named Calm
When nervousness controls every movement I make
Or when I feel as if every bone in my body is going to shatter and break
His serene words derogate my overwhelming thoughts
Reminding me they are just that, thoughts.
I now have a friend named Happiness
Through the times in my life that are simply bad
Through the moments in life where the only emotion I feel is sad
She is there for me whenever I plead
Helping me find what I desperately lack and desperately need.
My anxiety is still present but I do not let it defeat me
Because now I surround myself with positivity that completes me
I struggled throughout the year but now I am here
Living my life with a smile from ear to ear.