I Dream of Pretty
I want flawless nails.
I want easy breezy beautiful.
I want feel light.
I want a gravitational pull.
I want long soft hair.
I want people to stare in awe.
I want clothes that fit.
I want it all.
I want the title of heartbreaker.
I want to be sexy.
I want to feel the love.
I want to be pretty.
I get inked.
I dye my hair.
I get pierced a bit.
I'm too self aware.
I only skim across my reflection.
I try so hard to change.
I put scars on my arms.
They remind me of my shame.
I modify to make it better.
I want the whole world to see.
I change to get noticed.
I just want to be pretty.
I look up beauty tips.
My mind travels to my weight.
My skin has craters.
It's like ugly is my fate.
With all the thinking I do,
You'd imagine a weight loss.
Yet, I have time to eat.
I have food with all my thoughts.
The eating never stops.
My body is never date ready.
I can't wear the things I like.
I just really want to be pretty,
That's all.