I Don't Want to Fall In Love

I've never been in love and I don't want to start now. 
And in honest when the thought crossed my mind I thought of you. 
Yet you thought of her, 
and I could never keep up with someone like her. 
I don't want to accuse you of being distant, 
or that you led me on
it's just that I dreamnt of this. 
Of a picture perfect reality, 
for only you and me
but you saw you and her. 
I don't want to fall in love, because this is not love
yet it's clawing at my brain. 
I don't want to fall in love, because thinking of you makes me insane
And I'm not one for cliches
Or stupid love stories
There's always something goes wrong in my mind. 
And in this instance it wasn't just in my mind. 
You were alive, you were real, right in front of me. 
Not something I made up, or saw in my dreams. 
I've never been in love and I don't want to be
because this pain, as sappy as it might sounds
is the worst pain to feel. 
And I've never felt like this,
and I don't want to feel like this. 
I don't want to say this, 
or write this, or read this. 
But this, is how I live,
without this, who knows what I would become. 

I don't want to fall in love. 

This poem is about: 
Me

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