I Am Who I'm Meant To Be
It kills me inside to not be able to say this
It kills me even more when I hear people say 'your just confused
All the girls your age goes through this, its normal'
But what they do not know is how I really feel.
The intoxication I have inside of me is killing me more and more as the days go by
The intoxication is accumulating so one day it can eventually kill me
But what will kill me is not the intoxication but your rejection
Your rejection and not being able to accept who I am
Who I truly am.
No, I am not that little girl anymore who used to play with her dolls
Who would always listen to what you said, obeyed, and would never say no
Now its time for you to listen to me and understand that I have changed
No matter how many times I tried not to change and think of all this 'confusion' I could not change back
Why?
Because its who I truly am
I am still going to be the same funny, honest, and intelligent girl
But just with a little extra thing in there.
It all started with one kiss, then another, and another until...
One day I said to myself 'Is this just for fun or for real?'
And after years of figuring it out, it was just for her entertainment
She brought my hopes up for nothing
But you know what she brought them up for a reason
Therefore I finally found out who I am
Who I truly am?
People may say its wrong and disgusting
But you know what?
Who cares what they say
Because I am who I am meant to be and I will not change for anybody.