I Am Afraid
Its been 1 year and 1 month being with you, being a boyfriend...
Do I love it?
Yes
Do I love you?
Fuck yes
Do you love me?
Yeah...you do
Are you beautiful?
Oh yeah
Are you always there for me?
You always will be
Do you hate how I can't correctly use there and their?
Yes, yes you do
Am I scared?
Yes...
Okay yeah, I am terrified because when I decided that when you were the one,
The one I was going to be in a relationship with I did not think I was going to love you,
But when I did I decided that drinking at an age of 16 is not okay and promised you I would stop,
My anxiety left my body everytime your manly hands would touch my rough skin,
I found everything you did fucking hilarious yet tried not to laugh,
I started to see how really annoying you were,
I was fucking terrified,
Why?
Cus I love you,
Yep,
I am cheesy, yes you hate that,
I am grumpy, you think its so cute,
I have so much insecurities, yet you still call me cute,
I hated you, I still hate you,
You are making me feel vulnerable, scared, and just confused,
I'm scared I am going to hurt you,
Or i'll be hurt,
But its the best feeling ever,
Because I love you,
You're mine,
I'm yours,
So, let's do this,
I'm ready,
3,
2,
1,
Ignite....