A House is not a Home
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I was born into a world of destruction and hate, all led by you
You whispered nursery rhymes and lovely phrases into my ear with a hint of alcohol on your breath
You led me to believe in a world where you were perfect and understanding and capable of love
You introduced me to a woman I had never known and made me call her "mom" for the 6 months that your marriage lasted
You forgot me at an unknown trap house
You forgot me at school
You just forgot me
You then left
You left and you never looked back
You never wrote
You never called
I lived my whole life without a father because of you
And I still wonder to this day if it was because I wasn't good enough for you
Because I wasn't pretty
or smart
or funny
But it's ridiculous to think like that
Because everyone deserves love
Everyone deserves a dad
but not everyone deserves
to be one
And maybe 20 years down the road
I will have a wedding
And you'll realize what a mistake you had made,
You'll wish you could take it all back,
and there I will stand, with no one by my arm
Walking down the aisle to the love of my life
Giving myself away
Because I belong to no one.
I will be happy,
I will be free.