How can someone love the horrible monster I see

How can someone marry this crazy girl that speaks

I ask this all the time 

How can someone love me ?

I mean I'm selfish && inconsiderate

I'm jealous && spiteful 

I catch attitudes and can get very hurtful 

I tell the truth, hoping that it hurts

I'm in love with making people that surround me miserable 

For my very own enjoyment 

I abuse their love 

I take them for granted

I sometimes even turn their own  love into a knife 

And stab them 

I create tornados with hurtful words

then I kiss them 

And watch their tears turn into tsunamis

Wich causes a heart stricken hurricane

Can't you see I'm no good

Can't you see I feel like I'm all I'll ever have

Can't you see that I've tried to love people but it always goes bad 

Can't you see that I'm alone in this corner still struggling to love me 

Catching bits of pieces of space 

But still finding none to see 

That you were always there 

Right beside me 

But it's okay 

because I'm just another horrible person trying to find me