Hope Through Open Eyes
I sit here wondering
As the razor goes across my skin
No hope for me now
This dark place, there is no escape
Asking “why?” but there is no answer
The pills on the floor seemed to be the only way
Tears running down my face as I watch the blood fall
“Help me” but there is no answer
I paint a picture on my skin
This picture breaks down part of my soul
It’s all done for me
No one can catch me now, I’m at the edge
All this pain, what did I do to deserve this?
This world is just a cruel place with no hope
No friends, the razor became my only pleasure
Screaming but no one can hear me now
I look up at the ceiling once more
Wondering if the pills will help with this darkness
Once more the razor goes across my skin
All this crying my eyes become swollen
I can hardly see through all this
I close them hoping to gain the strength to end it
As my eyes close I see a light
I have never seen this before, where did it come from?
Reaching for it, I gain motivation
I need to catch it, what does it mean?
I open my eyes again only to see the Sun
This darkness disappeared
My mother knocks on my door to wake me up
My best friend calls me to make sure I was fine
My father messages me “good morning”
I had hope, my eyes finally completely opened
There were people around me that cared
They knew I existed; they remembered me
I spoke to the suicide hotline for advice
Something I will never forget
Is how there are people out there in the world that care
I found hope in everything around me
Clean for about six months, I can now smile
I show everyone that I care about them
I will never let anyone go through what I did
There is help in many forms
Just look around you