I saw you yesterday,
A year ago today
It's hard to explain
Dreams can blend with memories that way
It seems like forever
This past decade
I've had to lie
In the mess of a bad I have made
It's haunting
The things I've had to do
To get by without so much
As a single word from you
I hung on by a thread
Well you moved on in my stead
I was stuck for a while
With you trapped inside my head
I had to let it go
And not let my pain show
They could huff and puff but my house
Wouldn't fall from there blows
It's almost time
To leave this sabbatical behind
But I'm reluctant to go
Because I'm afraid of what I might find
January's so cold
Especially with no clothes
You pawned them off I suppose
Or give them away to the next man bereft of any hope
I traded in my sadness
For a form of Merry madness
And I traded all my tears
For a few well-placed jeers
I can only hate for so long
Part of me knew all along
It would be just a short while
Before you'd be dead and gone