Here I sit alone
Here I sit alone with my thoughts
My mind going round and round
It feels like my body’s bound with these thoughts that really tie me down
I sit and I watch as life goes by and look at my own with a frown
I know it’s a mental illness
I know it’s not my fault
But it doesn’t stop the feeling that I let every one down
Here I sit alone with my thoughts
My mind going round and round
A single tear rolls down my face I hate being in this scary place.
I’ve have to hold it together but it’s too much to bear
I don’t know what’s happening all I feel is fear
The next thing I know I’m on the floor crying
I’ve got to keep on I’ve got to keep going
Here I sit alone with my thoughts
My mind going round and round
The voice in my head tells me it’s time to go
So swallow those pills no one is to know
I don’t want to leave but I feel so alone
What about my family what will they do
The voice says They don’t care your all alone.
I must be strong and fight this voice
If not I will end up making the saddest choice.
Those I would leave are the ones that will suffer.
Its not my time I must be stronger.
Here I sit with a clearer head
My mind going round and round
Looking back at the darkest times that over took my mind.
My family are here I’m not alone
I can go on and continue to grow
I’m a good person inside that I know
I just need to believe in myself and that will show
It’s not my time I don’t need to go.
Copyright Paul Gibbs 010918