Ana said it’d be easy
Ana said it’d be fun
Ana said you’ll be prettier, in no time you’ll be a size 1
She said “Take my hand” and I did
She told me to stop eating
Start exercising
Count those calories
And then came along Mia
She told me Ana was right, but her advice would help too
She (Mia), said throw up
Eat laxatives
Drink gallons of water
“Binge, purge, starve, binge, purge, starve; it’s easy as 1, 2, 3.”
I did what she said, and soon I forgot the feeling of being hungry
That weight started dropping like water balloons in the summer
My clothes started getting too big, what a happy bummer
Those compliments started pouring in;
I was pretty.
I was thin.

Ana and Mia showed me something like never before
I just put my life on the line, I didn’t know what was in store
All those days sitting by the toliet sink
Shoving my fingers down my throat and watching my less-than-500-calories go down the drain
My bones were aching, I couldn’t escape the pain
Hair started falling out, skin getting pale
Still saw myself distorted in the mirror, the size of an orca whale.
I couldn’t stop what I had started.
I was never finished, never done.
I had to reach my goal, I HAD to be a size 1
That’s very unhealthy for someone like me
5’10 and 130 pounds, what a stick sight to see
No one ever noticed the thinning of me

The long recovery from the wild ride started there
Everything I tried to eat came back up
I was in despair
Spiraling into a depression… off of this.

My journey with Ana and Mia has ended
Sometimes they come back
And sometimes I play their game
You may have thought the friendship was over;
But it’s really just begun.