Heaven Doesn't Need Another Angel
i lay there stoic
face up
body rigid and cold
my arms are crossed over my chest in anticipation of what is to come
and
as the light escaped my eyes
i realize that
on this death bed
on this worn out mattress
i am not reaching the end of life
i am not beginning my demise
no
i am freeing myself from the strict confines
of lies and blasphemy
heaven is waiting for me
i can't wait to walk up the steps to the pearly gate of gold
and i can't wait to refuse my own entry
my last breath will come soon
and as my mother leaves the room
my soul becomes the moon
and i can see lovers swoon inside the hour glass that death is swinging before me
i take a peak at the glass full of sand
and i see a girl with the prettiest eyes
they are as deep as the ocean and as brown as fall
a color so intense i couldn't digest it all
her irises are silent as they stare but they sing like a choir
and if her eyes were a flame, then her mind mustve been a fire
i only saw her for a second but she filled me with red
red like the sparks that are bouncing around inside of her head
i fell in love with this girl and her deep coffee eyes
and when i stepped closer
i realized
that her eyes were mine
"she's in a better place"
no, really I'm not
I'm in the best place i could be
undeniably happy and unforgivably free