Heartbreak.

They say it causes both emotional and physical exhaustion and pain...

That was enough to scare me away from it for so long- 

Love I mean-

I never let myself fall hard enough to get hurt.

 

Then I met you and tripped

and fell

and fell

there was no way to avoid it.

 

but y o u

you were so beautiful and kind

and broken

you could never hurt me...

 

yet

 

here 

i

am...

 

brok e n

b ro ke n

br o k en

 

and you might never know

how b r o k e n 

it feels

to be broken 

by someone you l o v e d

and still love them

and 

still

l o v e

them

 

but i hope you never feel like this

this b r o k e n

i hope you never get nauseous from the thought of me

i hope you never feel your soul aching

i hope you never to hear a song and have to get on the ground with your forehead against the tile

just to make the p a i n s t o p

i hope you never lose your appetite 

i hope youre always able to shower and sleep

 

i feel like im absolutely losing my m i n d

and i feel so w e a k

but as i suffer

i hope 

and 

i pray

that your doing okay

 

o k a y . . .