I was the girl who never stood up for herself.
I was the girl who never dared spoke up.
But I am not still the same girl.
See I was tired.
Tired of hearing my name spat out.
Tired of hearing my “friends” saying awful things about me.
Tired of never being enough.
But I still just listened.
I listened until I couldn’t take anymore of this so called friendship that were only left me in tears.
So I spoke
I spoke up to those who spat my name, who are now friendly to me
I spoke up to my so called friends, who now hardly look me in the eyes
I spoke up so I can be enough for just me, myself, and I.
But now I fear the worst.
Was it all my fault now that I have no friends?
The answer is no I tell myself those people used me.
Maybe all my “friends” were right maybe I was selfish
But does it make me selfish for wanting more in life than just fakeness?
The answer is no, I was not selfish for wanting a better life.
You see three years ago I found my voice and that has changed my life completely.
3 years after I found my voice you see a different girl.
I am now not afraid to stand my ground
I am not afraid to leave the people who put me down
And I am most certainly not afraid to let my voice roar.
So I have found my voice now, and let me promise you
I promise not to let anyone take it
And I most certainly promise to not go back and be the girl who was once afraid.