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The pain I felt everyday was a knife to my heart
The days went by in darkness and no hope
So close to just calling it quits and letting the sea take me away
But then the day came which threw me a surprise
Forgiveness overcame me and the man who destoryed me was no longer a part of me
The man who destoryed my trust in all men
The man who gave me a false picture to believe in
The man who turned and lit up the picture with me inside
Everything around me up in flames with no chance of surivial
The nights crying myself to sleep blaming myself for everything
The blood from my wrist reminding me of the pain inside my heart
Just wanting to sleep and never wake up to see another day of darkness
The hardest thing I ever had to do in my life was forgive you for your crimes
Forgive for three years worth of lies spoken while he looked at my eyes
"I will take care of you"
"You don't have to worry about a thing"
And the worst one of all
"I love you"
You threw it in my face like it was nothing
And I believed you like a fool who is in love for the very first time
It took all my teenage years but I finally was able to move on
The last step was to forgive
I found your number on a piece of paper I shed up and called
When you picked up I said
"I forgive you for all the wrongs you have done to me and while it took a long time to get to this step I surivived through the sleepless nights and the nightmares when I closed my eyes. I just want to thank you for the lessons learned and I hope you have a great life."
The moment I hang up the phone all the hate in my heart disapear like it was never there
The thoughts of hurting you turned to hope of tomorrow
This is the story of a 13 year old boy who believed a step-dad lies and after a long time found the strenght to forgive and move on.
The pain is still there but I'm not letting you hold me back anymore.