Happiness Starts with Him
I smile too much when he texts me
Everything he says makes me grin
Down at my phone
Down at my computer
Down at him
He makes me want to listen to country songs
And I hate country music
With a passion
But I love him with a passion too
He makes me day-dream
About the future
About him
About us
There isn’t even technically an us
When he says he loves me
I curl around my heart
Hoping that its pounding won’t break through
When he calls me baby
I glow with joy
He makes me understand
What happy is
He makes me think that my future exists
He shows me how to be normal
He melts the ice
He breaks the wall
Use whatever clichéd metaphor you want,
He got to my center
When he calls me cute
I giggle
When he texts me
I dance around the house like a child again
I fill with energy
I love him
And he loves me
Whether its for what I give him
Or for me
I don’t care
Because he makes me smile too much
So much,
That my mom asks
“Why are you smiling, dear?”
She knew how odd it was
For me to be happy
That was why I had to sit in a room with a lady once a week
But he took away my complaints
He listened to me explain why
Why I hated myself
And he gave me reasons not to
He gave me a reason to keep going
He gave me him
I never really understood the whole
“It only takes one person”
Mantra given to us in school assemblies
But now I do
It took him
Not one person
Him
That’s what changes things