Growing And Healing
5 years old
Staring at the mirror
Wondering why god ever brought me here
Achy thoughts-in my mind
Keeping them in, shutting people out
13 years old
Running so fast
That is untill I collapsed
Obsessing over people because I couldn't except myself.
Like a bird with no wings
Or a fish with no fins
I felt no hope like a bottomless bin
14 years old
locked in a cage
To weak to walk
To manic to talk
If bones were beauty
Than I was the beast
Trying to be skinny nearly ended me
16 years old
Feeling alive
Accepting myself for the first time
Tools in hand, ready to conquer the world
Feeling humbled by my demons
I was running again, but this time because I wanted too
I was looking in that mirror, but only for a second
17 years old
Stuck in my mind
Unlike the first time
I'm not going to hide
Fighting fire with fire
Using my screws and hammers
I'm finding beauty in strength
Not trying to change
But trying to live
I have found the key in my cell
I will forever be working
But working for myself.