once upon a time
i showed my age by holding up this many
i wanted to be an astronaut or a doctor
i was afraid of everything
but had an unwavering curiosity.
I went to school, came home, and did homework.
Sometimes it seemed never ending.
Sometimes it seemed to fast.
I started experimenting with different careers.
Could I be a veterinarian? Or a teacher?
I chose the latter.
All the sudden the wind shifted and I wasn’t at home anymore.
Well, I was home, but it didn’t feel like it.
Anxiety built up, I felt small,
It’s as if the whole world wished that I would crawl
Instead of run.
I started crying instead of laughing.
Rejecting rather than accepting.
I was shrinking and shrinking
Into my own skin.
Always wanting to get out,
Never feeling like I fit in.
Suddenly life thrusted me into where I am today,
And luckily, thank goodness, everything has changed.