To the girl crying in the bathroom stall...

 


I destroyed my body for a piece of mind I’ll never get.

I tried so hard to find a way out.

I starved myself to fit the “image” that I’ll never be.

I know what it feels like to want to die.

It’s like your drowning with air all around

Or how it hurts to smile because every God damn emotion shows in your eyes.

It’s complicated, I know.

You’re trying to kill the monster that’s crawling under your skin

And no matter how many times you try to kill it, failure sets in.

Drugs and alcohol won’t win this fight because believe me, I’ve tried.

It doesn’t matter how much you drink, snort, or shoot heroin into your veins;

Whatever hurt you will remain the same.

It hurts, sucks, burns, but you will learn

that they’re aren’t enough anti-depressants in the world that can save you

Or that God ignores selfish prayers

That there is no switch to turn off these feelings.

Arms are reaching for you

But you’ve closed your eyes because you’re too scared of what’s outside.

Sweetie, now’s not the time to scream and cry.

Please grab my hand.

I’ll drag you out of this godforsaken land.

This isn’t your time.

So, can you open your eyes?

You may not see it right away but

happiness is pretty close by.

 

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Comments

ian_ohmy

This is good

i like the part about god because trust me i can relate. 

savigirl14

I really love this poem :) Please don't hurt yourself with drugs or alcohol or eating disorders. You're beautiful in your pic and it seems like you have a kind heart. Please read my poems and tell me what you think of them.

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