For Freedom Beat
I don’t deserve to exist
when all I am is a miss
of expectations, successful accusations
solely lamentations of
thriving threats and predicted regrets,
depressing desolations of deprived sanity
my childhood one huge catastrophe, a cancelation
next step graduation
cap and gown wait for a liberation
a salvation from this 21st generation dictation
telling me what to believe, what it means to succeed
in a world green not with leaves but by greed
dollar signs tattoo the sleeves, USA land of the free.
But the brave are more like me
a heart-beating travesty from
sea to shining sea
struggling to achieve that college degree,
a piece of paper worth nothing more
than the stack paid financially.
Known for higher education, I am the first generation
Meant to seek the grand opportunity paved by Lady Liberty
Our country’s way of saying this is equality let’s defy gravity
But this is all just a fantasy
what reigns is mortality for
Our spacious skies a big fat lie
When you find yourself on that balcony
Wondering what it’s like to die.