Angry shadows creeping up behind me;
Grabbing my hair and hitting my face.
Once again, I've let down the ones that love me;
How could I let myself become such a disgrace?
I didn't want to go down this road again;
I was just starting to get my life back together.
But yet again, I've been seduced by sin;
And it feels like this pain will last forever.
Covered in dirt, I scrub until I bleed;
My mind so uneasy that I don't feel the pain.
Only God can give me what I really need;
But there are no blessings I feel I am to gain.
Faces in my face asking me why let this happen twice;
Maybe it's because I never really had a father or a mother.
No, it was not them because I HAD a family that treated me nice;
Then I realized I just wanted to be touched by someone who was not my brother.
Then I scream 'No! No! I'm not going to accept defeat!';
I have not struggled the past 18 years of my life for that.
So I tell failure to take a seat;
Because he will not be taking me back.
I'm getting my mind back on track with my heart and spirit right behind it;
I can feel the focus and determination running down my spine.
I want success, and I WILL find it;
And I know I'm going to be just fine.
I'm not going to waste my life living in guilt and self-hate;
After all I still have so much to move toward.
It'll never be too hard, and never be too late,
For me to keep fighting to move forward.