FOREVER

  I think he's cute/ and I'm really digging the vibe I'm getting from dude/ but I got a man and even if I was to lose my relationship today/ we could never be more than friends because he and my current man are friends and I just can't rock out that way/ fast forward/ Im starting to see him more/  we spend time together often/ always has my attention with him I'm never bored I'm intrigued in every moment./  If I don't hear  from him I hit his line or he'll hit mine/ growing up apart/ but still we link up bond unique and abstract like some expensive fine art/ behind me lyes stories and behind him lyes books, but I fucks with him hard and I cherish our friendship as dis functional as it may look/ with us shits never all good but when it's bad we good/ because with us lyes a foundation that can't be moved/ aye when I was alone some how some way he showed up/ never really knowing I was down on my luck and needed to feel loved/ when it mattered his presence has never let me down/ with him my soul has always been connected and still is, even as of now/ 2012 for the first time ever he actually broke my heart/ even with all the distance in the past in this moment we couldn't have been any closer but so separated and distanced apart/ I began looking at him in a new light/ for me love was gone no where insight/ whatever we once shared was dead to me for him I no longer had the desire to fight/ for once in my life I felt as low as everyone else had perceived me to be/ infuriated with him because I thought our background is what held his love and respect for me/ I thought our history meant something/ all that past shit I felt meant nothing/ all along I felt like he was playing me/ throughout all the years I've never felt this way about him before/ I told myself if I see him I won't speak/ if he sees me I hope he knows to not say a damn thing to me/ thinking we were better than this/ but then one night he came passed and we hashed out our differences/ bringing understanding to what was and what wasn't and expressing our feelings/ and the bond I thought was gone got stronger and the vision was clearer for why I fucks with him/ but still when I looked at him something was different/  so I faded out and started a fresh and new relationship/ as a year passed I thought of him but never let it get any further than that/ but than causally he questioned if love was still here/ I wanted to say no/ but I've never lied to this man so I let him know/ when you truly love someone it's not something that can be controlled/ even when you don't want to anymore/ time passed after this encounter about two in a half years/ he's been on my mind constantly I'm worried about him just want to hit him up and see how he's doing/ so the next day I run into him/ a funny coincidence/ he's been locked up a couple times since the last time I seen him/ but you know with us it's like no time has been lost/ every time we link up its still fresh like your all time favorite hit song/ ya shit is ya shit and will just forever and always be your shit/ no matter how old that shit gets/ but let's keep this thing moving to the time I seen him last/ we reminisced a bit on the past/ he told me he would marry me hands down no questions asked/ but as he was saying this constantly he was trying to get in my pants/ while telling me that's not his focus and  that's not all he wants from me/ that if I wanted we could just go down to the justice of peace/ I smiled full heartedly/ because the man I want more than anyone wants me/ but then my mind started going and began to start questioning/ questioning his motives and if he could actually love me unconditionally/ because I know that if he was serious I would hands down give him every inch of my being/ I sat there for a moment in silence just starring away/ because in front of me/ is the man that I never feel I need to hide from, the man that knows my ugly truths/, the man who I've been building with unknowingly from youth/, the man that holds my heart/, the man that shines bright even in the dark/ the man who I recognize the flaws but still the strengths over weight all the negative odds/ the man that I love as a lover and as a homie, /the man I love unconditionally/ I'm taken back thinking maybe this is a product of all those beers he's been taken back/ him ready to settle down/ why now?/ I snap out of the trans and ask him again/ are you sure can you guarantee / that all you want is me/ there's a pause then he's back at it again/ and I realize the risk of jumping forward with him is a risk to risky for me to risk/ so I bottle up the emotion/ and just enjoy his presence for the moment/ because our love is like the finest wine/ only getting better with time/ it's like a classic/ something that never gets old always hits you the same as the first time you heard it/ it's like a well that never runs dry/ we hold a bond that can not be broken/ were connected ford tough without always knowing/ what we have is automatic/ no planning no preparing it just is/ he's that sweet melody that keeps my remembering/ he's love/ my love/ the one know one else compares to/ I fucks with him hard something deep something so authentic and natural/  hasn't always been a choice but for me he's the truth/ and every time I think it has died the shit resurrects, shits unfuckwitable/ aye and if we never end up together the love we  share will still be there because it has no expiration date this is forever.  

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