Dear First Love,
I just wanted to remind you...
When you took a bite of the forbidden fruit, you consumed the promises you made
You said you would never leave now you refuse to look my way
To me when we were lovers I thought we’d be forever, but when you’re under weather you pushed me into the gutters.
Now I feel dirty, broken down and my skin has been scarred,
the girl that I loved, you no longer are. I can’t stand the outcome
Is this what love is because i’d rather tear out my heart out just to get rid
of the feelings you gave me , when our eyes met
we were “together” for 5 years so now what’s next?
You drove me crazy with pain and love.
Back then I would mourn the absence of your touch
I would beg to see you, plead to see you you’d tell me
“You're busy with your man and stuff”.
I was the confidential man,
We’d make secret plans behind his back
So you wouldn’t have to face your boyfriend’s wrath
Had me thinking that this is okay, that there’s nothing wrong with that,
not realizing that you have always been a trap
Making me in comparison nothing but a tap
If you ever come back in my life...
You'd see the damage you caused
It's too much to rewrite as I rewrite our history in my mind
I'm trying to make it clear to me
that I'm slowly changing all because of you and me I've cut my hair, my attitude changed I'm always happy and trapped in a daze Waiting for the minute, second, and hour that you would say you love me with all passionate power that you could produce, at love I just lose but I do have something to prove.
I want to prove to you that I truly did love you
and now that you’re not here with love I think i'm done too, calling you out is kind of bold my body’s young but my mind is old and
I have come to realize that I have a heart of gold
Which life had turned to copper
Rusted over overtime by an emotion resistant father
Melted slowly by my lover, who said she could never love another
But where’s the truth in that as you only loved me undercover
Had a mate and another only loving me under covers
Grabbing my face as you covered,
My emotions just like the others
Left me broken down into pieces
Threw me away and now you’re leaving
And now I know I make no sense
Because I still love you yet I regret, opening up myself pulling my slowly beating heart out of my chest just for you to tell me that you want to sample all the rest,
So you can take your options even though you used me for sex
Eve, you took a bite of the forbidden fruit, I hope you know what’s next!