I don't have a healthy relationship with food.
I know I don't.

Sometimes I don't eat.
Sometimes I eat too much.
But either way,
I hate myself for it.

So I limit myself,
Don't eat this,
Only eat that.

Then break my own rules.

I don't have a healthy relationship with food.
I know I don't.

It's abusive,
It's brutal.
It reduces me to tears.

It may sound extreme,

But it happens.

I don't have a healthy relationship with food.
I know I don't.

But I have no idea how to fix it.

And I'm too scared to ask anyone for help.